Need to post this as a separate thread, cause really hope to get answers. I'm very new to the whole issue of dissociation; I've been basically living with it and ignoring it for decades, but it is becoming impossible to ignore now.

This is what has been happening to me a lot recently: sometimes I'm not sure if I really do say things, or say them in my head, but I've experienced a strange reaction like waking up from a trance and people having strange expressions on their faces. That happened twice recently. I didnt like it at all. I'm rather sure I was saying things loud, I remembered what I was saying, but it did feel as if I was completely detached. I said an outrageous thing on one occasion, I must have said it, because I believe I could hear my own voice, and the person in front of me seemed slightly shocked.

I really have to wonder now if that has been happening my entire life? Nobody ever told me anything though. So maybe it's started happening now?

I'm immensely confused. And I need to solve this puzzle, cause it doesnt seem SAFE at all.

Not sure how to handle it.

Another thing: I've just understood why I'm constantly getting lost. I believed my entire life I have poor orientation skills, because I was getting lost very often, including in places I knew. But that explanation never made much sense, because, on the other hand, I could sometimes be perfectly fine in completely new environments, so it was something switching on and off. I think that's a pretty clear sign of dissociating very often.