I haven't been around long, but I've heard of alters going quiet.

And yes, you want help.

I/we have spent 30 years of out of control drinking and drugging, lost in an alternate reality ready to die by overdose. When we got clean a few years ago, everything started falling in to place.

Granted I've been drinking, and so have the others, but we are not drinking tonight. We have plans of going back to meetings.

If things ever get beyond your control and that you are in danger of yourself or others, call 911 and get to an ER where they will give you a psych evaluation and then send you to a psych hospital where you can start receiving mental aid.

Before I got insurance, I attended a clinic that billed on a sliding scale. I'm poor enough that the appointments and meds were "free".

Good luck!