Hi,

Lately I have been thinking about suicide a lot. Every day more and more. I believe one of the reasons is me being underachieved. As a person, who had high hopes for myself I ended up working in a fast food restaurant. But the biggest reason is being alone. I am 21 years old and I never had a girl to be by my side. I had fallen for other ones but I was not be able to be with any one of them. I now have feeling for one but I cannot be with her because she is happy with her current boyfriend and she is the only one who can add colors to my life. I don't think that this is what everyone simply calls love, I just want to start crying when I am alone. I feel miserable every day more.

I try to stay positive as much as I can and it works when I am around people but as soon as I am by myself, the only thought I have is suicide. I hope you can help me