its just my mom. she said she was helping me lose weight because i mentioned it. but she flaunts it in my face. sure i said i wanted to lose 5 pounds. but then she says "i was 100 pounds when i was your age. i didnt have to worry about weight. my waist was very thin". im just not wanting to become prediabetic again or diabetic and 180 pounds again or more. and now ive become self conscious.

and now shes like "i plan to lose 10 pounds by october".

TRIGGER:

i wouldnt be so self conscious about my weight i bet if my mom wasnt an alcoholic and wouldnt have called me names about my weight when i WAS overweight at the time. shes said ive eaten like a pig. shes said i look fat. many times when i was 180. this was when she was drunk.

i cant tell you how many times shes said i needed to eat healthier. even now with me weighing 10 pounds less than her.