I like to isolate. That's the first sign but now it's become such a regular aspect of my life I don't really see it as a sign of a breakdown...

I get anxious, start getting moody and I am stuck in ruminative thoughts and unable to do anything. I feel incapacitated, meaning I cannot do the simplest of tasks without feeling overburdened or feeling the need to crawl back into bed and hide under the covers. I avoid responsibility and try to relax. I sleep way more or less. I have nightmares. I get very edgy around people and feel like they are a nuisance at times. I feel scared and alone and tend to get very clingy and needy and reach out to friends and family. I don't eat, I don't shower, I don't think about exercising.

Basically me entire life is being stuck in my head - like some kind of dream like state. It's very taxing. It's been like this for close to two years. I have so many fears I don't really know if I ever have a moment without crisis.

Thanks,
HD