So far so good today. The S thoughts is slowly fading, and to be honest I am more than happy that the odds are in my favor today, the rational thoughts to counter these S and craiglist thoughts is surprisingly working today.

Hope it'll stay this way, but not sure if the anonymous girl I sent a message asking for her to watch the sunset (no S intentions) would reply to my email.

Kinda messed up life I am having now.