So I'm sad. I've decided to withdraw from my group of friends IRL. They're all wonderful, but I just can't see them. I used to be in a relationship with one of them and did so many things as a couple (for years) that I can't see the rest of my friends without thinking of how much I miss that relationship. And there's no way I can get over it if I'm constantly missing it. So I'm trying to slowly withdraw from all my friends. I don't ignore them (or not answer emails or anything), I've just stopped suggesting that we do anything together. And I'm slowly less and less available if someone else suggests it to me. It's terribly sad for me, but I don't think I can move on with my life unless I extricate myself from my reality as I know it. I'm being forced to change jobs (having been laid off), and I've even considered moving to another area of the country. I don't think I'm ready for that step though so will just pull away from my group. It's hard though. And really sad to be so lonely. I know I'll find a new circle of friends eventually, but right now I don't even want to look for any.

I am sad.
Sidony