Suicidal thoughts are an urgent mental health issue. Consult your physician. If you have not told anyone about it you need to do so now. You said yourself it is getting worse. Please don't delay seeking assistance; it will only make it longer and harder for you to recover. There are very good treatment options for depression and there is no good reason for you to continue being depressed and suicidal. Don't waste time thinking of reasons not to ge help and get caught up in why your depressed or suicidal. Just get treatment now.

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