I have a really hard time falling asleep and staying asleep and it's been that ways for years.

I just feel both tired and wound up at the same time and lately I've been feeling the urge not to sleep. I want to stay awake for days until I crash. I'm not really sure why. Maybe it's because I feel down right now and like I hate myself.

I also wonder if it's related to my problems with food because I get angry in general, and I don't want to eat. I guess my mind takes out its anger on food.

I even started exercising at night but I can only do weights because I live with other people. It doesn't really help me sleep but at least I might be getting some muscles.


I also tend to fall asleep in burst, so there's that.