And mad. I have been looking for treatment for 3 years across 3 different states. It seems that there is NOTHING. Obamacare doesnt cover anyone. i have seen many therapists without DD experience but they seem to just make things worse in the long term. To get a more qualified therapist it seems i would need to get a job to afford it, but i cant go into work until i get treatment!!

Now I have alters fighting over who has rights to what in life, alters denying everyone else what they need, alters that retraumatize the system, alters that have relapsed into anorexia to the point that i am getting ill, alters that have daily panic attacks and insomnia... And what can i get? Bandaid treatment.

My life is a wreck. I hate the mental health system. But i cant just call it quits, i have to be seeing someone, even if they are unqualufied, even if they make things worse. Or the state will decide im not in therapy because i got better and cut off my social security.

The world doesnt care.

.Phoenix and Josh