Okay so the college process has begun for me now. I have one choice, without which I will be oh so lost. Needless to say, I need to give my all to this ONE little application that will make me or break me. I have come to the realization that to be the weight I want, I am risking failure in that application process for lack of mental capacity during that state of thinking. So...I'm going to shoot for "normal" here. Right now I'm at a meal and a snack a day, then I will try to move on to 2 meals maybe, when I feel ready...and go on from there hopefully.

I will need help with this, I know that I will. I'm going to talk to my good friends who have been with me through this, and I know I can count on support from you all here at PC and I thank you for that SO much! This time I guess I have to fix the mind that hurt the body that in turn hurt the mind worse...in the first place. I can't be preoccupied with an ed during the time that will change my life for the better or worse depending on my performance.


this was half organizing of my thoughts...I feel better now...after a bout of depression for the last week or so...I feel better now! I can do this....eh?