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Originally Posted by Perna
Things could not continue the way they were and you did not yet have the skills to respond in a less hurtful, to yourself as well as her, way. Get some counselling and support for yourself and work it through. It is very painful and will take a lot of time to heal but it's worth it to try.
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Thanks alot, i will seek to it.
What drove me to this situation though is the thought of loosing her. i really love her and i know she does to. we are not living together as her family came and picked her up and we talk constantly on the phone she is completely honest with me she cries and wants me back but the family wont allow it and they will take the kid away from her is she comes back. Her sister drives her to see me for 5 minutes twice a week because she is not allowed to leave the house.
We will both start counseling but she is too scared because she cant close her eyes without living the moments she saw me hurting myself. She cries all the time and says she loves me but she is afraid that this will haunt her forever.
Now i am devastated as i never in my life hit a lady and i destroyed mentally the person i love the most. Even though she did what she did to me i did 1000 times worse and it was the last thing i wanted to do.
How can i help her? Should i stay away and let her heal? Should i stay with her and support her even though i am the monster?
I just need to know that she is smiling again and finds peace and happiness even if i never see her again.