So I didn't end up telling her about ex-T yesterday. I had cut really deeply again and we talked about my safety plan and triggers, and getting more help and stuff. at the end I told her something has been really hurting me for months and she got it right away, she said, "do you think it has something to do with how bad your self-harm has gotten?" And I nodded and she said "can you tell me please?" And I looked at the clock (5 mins... She often goes over but I didn't want to start it that close to the end) and asked her if I could write it for her and bring it in next week. She said it was important to tell her if it was in any way contributing to the self-harm, since it's been severe and I shouldn't be in this much pain. But I said I'd rather just talk about it next week. So that's what I'm doing and I can't really go back now so I'm nervous.