hi
you had depression in any case, and I do think that your ex cheating on you made things considerably worse. With regard to the voice thing I know about that. It's not my problem. But I do know that people have successfully been able to manage hearing voices. Sometimes these voices start off as nasty things telling them. For instance to kill other people, etc. But then. The thing they do is to stand up to the voice and say no. If the voice plagues them. Then they come to an agreement with the voice to only hear from it at a specific time. For instance for a half an hour at 6 PM and very often the voice keeps to that. When dealt with successfully, the voices turn into pleasant helpful ones.

There is antipsychotic medication that sufferers take for this. Also there is the hearing voices network in the US which you can Google to find out all about. This problem is manageable. If you feel paranoid about things. For instance that people are out to get you etc. just ask yourself what advice you would give to someone experiencing the same thing. You subject it to the reality test. And ask yourself what evidence there is to substantiate people trying to do things on you?

I honestly believe that seeing a therapist for counseling on this and effective coping strategies to deal with it would be best. I was just wondering whether you thought the voice saying to you. It would be better if these people were dead is in any way related to the anger you have been experiencing. In connection with that. Do you think it would be helpful for you to get coping strategies for anger management? But don't worry, you are not insane and recovery from what you are suffering from is definitely doable. I really hope and pray this does get much better for you soon. Take care. Have a really great day. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis