I have an 8 month old, 3 yr old, 9 yr old boys and I scream at my older two (acting like a 3 yr old myself) and I scare the hell out of them and my 3 yr olds behavior is horrible a lot of the time bc of my behaviors...and I feel DISGUSTINGLY HORRIBLE. Its the dysphoric mania that gets the best of me.

And I can def relate to letting my kids have at it with the electronics, because when Im overly worried about their daily activities my irritation level goes up. But theres been times Ive just snapped on my 9 yr old bc Im tired of seeing him just sit there all day! Its a never-ending battle in my head..and I also feel guilty for not taking them to more places and showing them the world around them, bc taking them to the park turns into hell afterward for both me and the kids. And besides, common advise for bipolar parents is if a family outing or vacation will cause you to lose it, then its not even worth going.

Theres days I just sit there or lay there and I cannot for the life of me do anything with my children, and I feel horrible for it. Days I cant bring myself to bathe them either..days like that are bare necessities, safety and food.

Oh, and STAY AWAY FROM FACEBOOK ITS ALL FAKE EGO DISGUSTINGNESS!!