"I even like pain in the bedroom"

Me too. I used to be a cutter for about 12 years, since the age of 14. I like the feeling of pain, when it's intentional. Since getting lupus, and being in pain 24/7 with little break in between, I have cut back on the cutting (no pun intended) because I am kinda tired of being in pain now. But I still will ask my husband to go rough enough for it to hurt and it helps me get there. I don't think it's such a bad thing about the bedroom thing, it's just natural in some ways. Anyway, I just wanted to let you know you're not a freak for liking the intentional pain. There are others out there like us.