I have a problem. It is me being too sensitive. Now whenever I talk to a therapist I expect perfection. I want them to be just right and be supportive of me and not show any discomfort or judgement.

My trauma is that I talked about several sexual incidents in front of my family several times and one time in front of my psychiatrist and his assistant and my parents in graphic detail and I got scarred by these incidents. Now when I go outside or sometimes inside the house as well I get in this condition where I feel like people are aware of my thoughts and can see my thoughts and can see through me basically. This is really traumatizing because I feel they know shameful stuff about me. And nothing helps.... except taking 10 or 12 sleeping pills to make me really drowsy so that the cycle of the thoughts are broken.

Now when I go to a therapist I wana talk about trauma but I feel like the therapist is judging me because it is about sexual incidents and talking about them in front of my family. I feel judged or I feel the therapist is getting uncomfortable.

I talked to a therapist today and she sounded really loud and insensitive, now I say that because she did sound like that. But just talking to her on the phone I now have negative thoughts about her and I am so sensitive that I am predicting that she is going to be loud and overbearing.

How did you find your therapist and how did you cope with being too sensitive?