And the beat goes on, and on. We can't stay away from each other. We have to see each other at every opportunity. And its such a two way street. Oh God I love her so much. On one recent day out she said to me "this is just so not fair to you" ... we do so enjoy being with each other ... My reply was simply "If I am to be deprived of you for the rest of my life; then these few hours together are a blessing from God, and I thank Him!" I love her so much. Today she asked - "what are you going to do when I get married ... " She stimulates me intellectually, spiritually, emotionally and physically. Truly what will I have to live for if their engagement lasts through to marriage. What? How can I live each day after - hoping that he'll leave her or kick the bucket!? That is no way to live. She just dropped me off at work ... Oh God I miss her.