hi pink ,
there is hope for you hun . stop.being hard on yourself . your psychiatrist and psychologist cannot say your hopless . you need to get start thinking positive about yourself and life. im going through the same thing that you're going through right now but 10x as worse than you are but I don't let it get to me cuz I have a good therapist who specializes in anxiety,depression,adjustments in life changes ,relationships,promoting strengths for personal growth and she is also an experienced registered nurse. I can call her whenever im in crisis or when something is not feeling right to me . pink think positive and things will work out for the better.