I'm med compliant. The only thing I'm not compliant about is when I take my geodon because I'm supposed to take half in the morning and half at night, but instead I just take it all at night because I don't like feeling weird and spacey during the day.

I have similar worries, about dying because of them. I can understand that anxiety.

But I don't think my pdoc would put me on a med cocktail that wasn't safe.

Luckily, with the meds I'm currently on, I don't really have any side effects. If I have really severe side effects from something I stop taking it. I didn't like the side effects from seroquel and wanted off that asap, and it wasn't working anyway. It just made me starving and sweet craving and made me gain because of that. I was not happy on it.

Anyway, explain to your pdoc your fears, and perhaps he or she can reassure you and make you less afraid of taking your meds.