Just to add:

One benefit of the T I saw today is that she was really open to talking about the T-client relationship. She agreed with me that it would be beneficial for me to think about my relationship with T, and if I feel like I'm the right level of attached, if it is helpful for me, etc. Whether or not old T comes back, I would like to take some time now to really reflect on that. I've been realizing that maybe my T isn't as connected to me or as conscientious as I thought she was. My feelings have been hurt a bit by this and I'm realizing that her promise to "keep in touch forever" might not mean the same thing to me as it does to her. I'm realizing thst the end of therapy is an END and not just "less contact." Because, right now, she did respond to my email-- but it was pretty brief, unconnected, and didn't make me feel good. That isn't what I want after I do terminate therapy. So maybe I need to re-evaluate that stuff. This T seems open to having those conversations. She might even have some insight for me on that stuff from a therapist's perspective. I don't think I could have any of those conversations with a T who worked for my regular t. But the downside of the T I saw today is that I would not get the "therapy high" that I get with my real T. I think the age difference and the smelly office would make it impossible to connect to her on that level. I also do need to talk about dating/relationships (I just started seeing someone and am not sure how I feel about her), so I could really use a T who I felt more comfortable with in that respect. It seems like neither choice is ideal.