I'm currently in the loving life land of being high, but I think lower than I was two weeks ago the last time I saw my pdoc. However I have got that over enthusiastic thing going on, and after one tandem skydive I've now booked on for a week long course to learn to skydive solo.

I was super excited, and although I expected my pdoc to have concerns about it being impulsive, expensive, out of character etc. I wasn't expecting her to state she would force me into hospital if I'm not back to stable before then. She's concerned about the lack of judgement, the adrenalin sending me even higher so I start believing I can fly without deploying the parachute. I get it intellectually, but don't really think there's a risk for me.

So I have until Thursday to bring myself back to earth, or I will spend my week's holiday in hospital having wasted a lot of money. Problem is my manic self is still having an awesome time, and even with that threat hanging over me I'm not sure I want to take the meds to bring me down...