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Hi….. I read your intro here with interest and with sadness. You are an amazing person and mustn’t put yourself down like that. First thing first, feeling you need to cry, when attention is averted to you is fine. It is a perfectly normal and reasonable emotion. I understand completely when you say think everyone's judging you or wants to stab you. My mum once said to me … “You really are amazed when people like you, aren’t you? You don’t understand it do you?” You say you have learned to lock in your emotions, and you don't cry anymore. If anyone has a problem with you crying, it’s them that has the problem. You are simply showing you are a gentle human being.
<<There is, in my opinion, no hope for the world, and its inhabitants>>
There are many bad things in the world, and cruel and uncompassionate people in this world. There are also though many beautiful people, and we must never forget that.
<<I am exhausted. I am sad. I am furious. I am afraid. And I have all but yelled at God, saying, "Take me away, damn it! There is nothing here!">>
<<Now, I want to die, too bad. I'm just so numb. And exhausted. I've been upset over this so many times that I just simply feel the sorrow but... eh. I'm neutral now. My eyes, brain, and everything about me is exhausted man>>
Life can be exhausting. We need to be strong though. I know it’s easy for me to sit here and say, but you have qualities, and are a sensitive and caring person, I can tell that.
Like yourself, I am blessed with many good things, but still feel, in many ways, empty
You sound very angry. I have felt I have no true friends. Not enough people in this think of each other, but there are some. You are one of them.
You do have a mind. You speak with sincerity and from your heart. That is no bad thing in anyone.
You do have a soul and a body. No, it’s not pretending. You are speaking from your heart.
No voice? Uncaring people won’t listen, but good people will, and will recognise you for who you are. I want to listen, and want to be a friend – a sincere friend – and am sending you a friend request accordingly.
Of course it’s not a phase. I understand, I honestly do…. I want to help…. I am here if you wish to chat to me. I want to be a friend.
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