Therapists generally won't visit or call clients in hospital unless they are a part of the treatment team (have privileges).
Note that I am not trying to defend your former therapist at all in the following text.
A former friend that I met in hospital wanted a lot more than I could ever provide. He called me whenever he was in hospital and only when he was there or when he was intoxicated. I tried to develop a friendship outside of the psychiatric world, but I wasn't successful. Eventually, I told him that I needed to part ways, because I couldn't cope with visiting him in hospital. The hospital triggered me, because I had terrible experiences in there. It was all I could think about. I didn't dislike the man at all, I just couldn't cope with his issues and the hospital. - My point is that sometimes people make tough decisions because they are hurting themselves and cannot provide support or their behavior is hurting another person. Is it possible your former therapist was in a similar situation? I sensed this in your letter.
Why do you feel responsible for her decisions? She made those poor decisions, not you. Why do you punish yourself for them?
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