The last time I had a full time job, it did make me suicidal. I ended up having to quit. I've tried to keep two part time jobs after that, and I couldn't handle those either. I don't know why, but the feeling of being trapped somewhere, doing something I end up hating, is nearly impossible for me to deal with. Maybe I'm just not good at handling stress... I quit my last job this week after having a panic attack that made me physically sick. I only worked about 15 hours a week, and had that job for a month and a half. Now I'm trying to figure out if there's anything I CAN do without this happening, because it seems like this always ends the same way.