um...crap!

i was hospitalized last week because of two weeks of major self injurying....now, its back to work monday.

huh? i don't get it? i don't know who i am!

crazy chick who can't wear her own damn underwear (nothing but a hospital gown) because she's being monitered for SIB or professional with lots of responsibilities and lots riding on her shoulders?

i'm so confused! i can't see how i can be both! i didn't SI for years - but several situations triggered it just recently.

i was hospitalized twice as a teen, but this is my first major melt-down as an adult in my 30's....... HOW do i walk into the office monday? HOW?!

HELP!! i feel so open, raw, exposed! i'm scared...........

<font color="red"> can anyone relate?? does anyone have advice?? please help! </font>