It's the first day of school today. My therapist convinced my parents to let me do online at home, since this is my senior year and i have tried so hard to go out more and do more things. I don't like school, I get panic attacks when there is too much people. I was bullied there so just being there gets me depressed and I get flashbacks. I'm at home right now with my mom. We were going to play scrabble when I asked her who had called a little while ago. She said it was my nina. She lives in texas and I spent two weeks with her and came home on the 3rd. I cry all the time bc she understood me so much and cared for me when I was low. I miss her so much. I feel even more alone and sad. So when my mom told me who called I began to cry. It has been a 35 min and I am still crying. I just feel so sad words cannot describe. Has anyone felt this way and how do you get through it.