I definitely relate to this!

I spent sessions in therapy recently curled into a ball and snuggled under and blanket and wearing a diaper. My therapist welcomed it. It was scary but it felt good to show this side of me... I need to do it more so I can explore it. The idea was that I would learn to parent and grow the little part of me and over time I could reach a more mature age.

My 3 year old wants to lay in bed all day and cuddle pillows and blankets and be safe and protected. My 28 year old parts want to go out and have a life and be mature. Mostly my 3 year old runs the show but the real problem is the bouncing back and forth. It's like I got two different people in me with two different needs, wants and desires and they conflict so badly that sometimes I don't know what to do! It's terrible.