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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte
I can get a lot done when I'm depressed or experiencing some sort of psychosis. I'm just thinking about my last actual episode when I was whatever I was (the doctor at the hospital said I was mixed and had a psychotic break...but I wasn't depressed during it. Just really paranoid, anxious, and too goal oriented on one thing to get anything relevant done).
However, I did do a lot of dancing. Lol!
In all honesty, I don't know. I have trouble identifying hypomania. I wrote one of my novels in a very short period of time, but I'm not sure if it was just a writing high or a hypomanic episode. I did crash for a long time afterwards.
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I'm getting better at identifying at hypomania, but it's still difficult because I don't know what my "normal" is. Mostly, when I'm depressed I don't get anything done...when I have bad anxiety I don't get anything done, either. So what I'm hypomanic I don't have much anxiety and I don't feel depressed, and I notice that I have a lot of motivation to accomplish things and multi-task and suddenly I'm very excited and positive about life and super social. Once I'm manic, as long as it's not a mixed episode (where I'm just really angry all the time), then I get too excited about too many things and it feels like anxiety so I get overwhelmed and don't do anything but fidget, pace, dance around, etc...
So I feel like I'm hypomanic right now because I'm experiencing all of the hypomanic symptoms above. I'm not sure if it's my "normal" because I was extremely depressed for a few days until this past Monday. And then the depression magically disappeared! It is strange and raises suspicion. Plus, a lot of times when I'm about to become psychotic, I listen to a lot of music and get obsessed about the music because my psychosis is always so music-based...and other times when I'm about to become psychotic I will repeat words and phrases in my head over and over again and rehearse conversations until it "sounds right" and no, I don't have OCD. But eventually all the word and phrase repetition turns into annoying rhythms and songs. So anyway, I am currently experiencing both early symptoms.
Anyway, I kind of went off topic. Sorry!