With Medicare the ER costs are waived if you are admitted. I'll be admitted, I've got just enough self-harm thoughts to ensure that. So at least that is one bill I won't have, I hope. I am very anxious about the bill though. Medicare has one amount you pay for an inpatient admission and after that it is covered 100% except drs. are covered at 80%. But the copay is $1200 and the drs bills will be a lot so it won't be cheap. And I'm just at the point of really seeing progress with my payments from surgery last year. I thought I was within months of only having to pay for therapy and my pdoc every month and now I've got this huge bill coming plus extra therapy sessions until I'm stable enough that they trust me to be safe (I have a history of lying about this so I am watched carefully coming out of these things and this particular time I feel like I am not going to hurt myself now but if I had more energy I might then so watching will be in order) and the extra anxiety is not helping.

I haven't heard from my pdoc which I am guessing means I'm going in through the ER. I still don't understand why exactly but I know direct admissions aren't that common. I just don't want to land in the in-between unit. I can ask to go to where I've been before and assume if there is a bed there that I'd be put there. I know she has wanted me to see the dr on the unit I don't go to so maybe that's the point. I just don't know and I hate not knowing when I feel crappy and anxious already.

the only benefit to going in sooner would be to get that part over with. I think I'm going to go Sunday unless the direct admit works out for monday. Then I'll be there to see a pdoc on Monday morning. And that gets it over with more quickly. At least this should be a shorter admission.