Thank you for replying is it easier in the sense you can be yourself without having to medicate just to "fit in with the norm" whatever the norm is. I'm no expert but i had a bad anxiety phase i had to be medicated to get through it all, i learnt exercises, coping mechanisms etc whilst on them so that once i come off them i won't need to be medicated anymore. Maybe that might work for you, or even just medicated yourself when you want to focus intensely on work or bills etc and then leave the meds until you may need them again.

That way you have the best of both worlds thats only my opinion though thank you for replying

Claire