thnks guys.

im having a fear that T is dead. i have this very specific scenario in my head abt how he died. i hate it and i feel grief. and worry. i took my night meds. i just want to be asleep. but even thats not ok with me since i have to get up early and go to work again. and feel like **** again. i think im getting depressed. maybe its the voices episode, maybe its my pms , maybe both i dont know. who knows!!!!!!!!!!!!! why cant things just stay ok????????????????????????????????????