Christenthenight welcome to Psych Central.Some of us here are in the same boat as yourself. When you care for someone so much its like burning a pattern into your life and then when the role has been taken away you've lost something that became a part of you. It's like you need a new thing to do. A very good new thing is to care for yourself. I'm just a fellow sufferer I'm not professional like a doc or anything just another person who's been thru something similar. It can be very hard to get a new pattern of caring for yourself, but well worth the journey. If you read about what some have experienced at this online site you may pick up some good advice you can apply to yourself. You are very brave at 14 that courage is part of caring for yourself and may help you develop some more good traits......kind regards Jjulia