I went through a two year period where I stopped caring about my weight or calories, as well. Gained a ton of weight from that. I'm sorry you're struggling!
I'm upset because I carry all my extra weight in my tummy, so my arms and legs are still small. It's a genetic thing. So when I was at my high school 10 year reunion last weekend, everyone thought I was pregnant. Very humiliating! But I've been asked a few times before that, as well. I definitely need to lose weight...but not sure how to do that in a healthy way without going overboard. There is definitely a fine line.