Thanks gostryter,

I told my best friend in the group about it, and she doesn't want me to leave of course. But it's even becoming hard for me to talk to her. I rarely see her without her significant other so I usually don't bring up really serious topics. Last week I went out to eat with just her and realized I couldn't even think of anything to talk about. I just mentioned that I was withdrawing and then couldn't go any farther with it. I think I talked a little bit about searching for work.

I'm depending on my therapist a lot now. I don't think he's really in favor of this whole withdrawal thing and was talking about me being depressed last time I was there. Well yeah, I'm depressed. I think withdrawing is going to help me though. I need to be with people where there's no shadow of my former self / former relationship constantly around me. If everything's new, I can look around and say "hey I haven't f---ed this up yet!" And then I can have a good time. And who knows, maybe I'll be better at relationships the next time around. I'm definitely learning a lot in therapy. I knew I wasn't good at talking, but I've slowly learned just how much I hold back without even noticing. I hope I can change that eventually.

Thanks guys. I appreciate the support.
Sidony