I think you might be a little depressed and maybe something else but I am not a profressional. I would like to share my opinion with you about what you are going through because I recently was in the same situation except I was married to the woman for 7 years. First, I allowed her to break me down through criticism which eventually turned me into someone I wasn't because I thought suppressing my self was okay because it kept her okay. That lead to me becoming a robot and it was effecting my outside life from home such as at work or where ever I went by myself. I started noticing that the things I would normally do as myself I would block on instinct all of a sudden. Almost like I was programmed with some software that my wife installed and even if she wasn't there physically for some reason she was still there controlling me. Which was true but then I realized that I am responsible for letting this happen because I allowed her to do it so I went on adventure to fix things for myself and as much as I could with the relationship which didn't work out. It took a few months then I found out she was cheating on me with 2 possibly more guys and all the progress I made hit a brick wall. My wifes install kicked in again because she was all I was thinking about and I started to suppress my emotions and not talk as much and seclude myself from the outside world because I was trying to understand what this was and I was extremely confused. The day I said screw it was the first step for me in an attempt to clear my mind and find myself again. Through that process I went through some things like you explained above, hearing a voice every now and then, sadness, I was angry and at points I thought about how easy it would be to load up my .32 and pull the trigger. I went though this rigorous process for 6 months and I thought well since i am hearing things I must really have a problem until I assessed how I was thinking, wrote the thoughts down on paper, studied my thoughts in order to find the source of the problem which was difficult. At the end of this excursion of my mind I literally had a map of my thoughts, negative and positive, what the sources were for each thought. I noticed a pattern with the negative and they all pointed to my ex wife and every time I thought about her all the negative thoughts connected with that came out to consume me. So, I had to get rid of the source in my mind in order to stop the intrusion of thoughts that shouldn't matter anymore. It was tough but I started dialectically thinking about a solution to this problem and I found it when I realized that keeping her in my mind just doesn't make common sense because it was effecting me negatively. After I got the majority of that woman out of my mind I stopped hearing stuff, my anger chilled out, and I was a little bit more happy. I guess what I am saying is that even though there are symptoms that describe a certain condition or disease of the brain it doesn't mean that it is permanent. I think digging within your own mind to analyze what you do and don't like and figuring out what you want to change by studying its sources in order to understand and determine what makes sense and what doesn't is a cure in itself. I think simply that the source of a lot of issues such as depression and hearing voices or paranoia all begin at when we start to suppress ourselves and withdraw from expression. I looked at as software and what i basically did was buy a black out CD to wipe out all the negative files in brain in order to build upon a newly updated version of software that I control. I didn't have any money to go see a doctor for my issues but thats what helped me and it might help and it might not. If you have money though I would go talk with someone. Alot of times I found that just bringing up random stuff that your concerned with to random people helps. The other day I felt like everyone was profiling me which actually did happen but it effected the next day. So I thought well I am going to go to the store and buy something then ask the cashier if I look appropriate for this new area I am in since I was concerned with that. haha the guy was said man your good you like you are from here then I had a good conversation for about 30 minutes. After that for some reason I was better and my negative self conciousness was gone. Sometimes it just takes some reassurance from random people i guess.