I've landed myself in a predicament. I've left behind, or gave up, all those things that made me, well me. But, at the same time, I have realized I am unable to adopt whatever it is I wanted to become, because it was never going to be me.

Basically, I'm stuck now with nothing, not me and not who I thought I want to be either. I can't go back because I threw my identity away (as of course I believed it was that that was holding me back), I can't go forward to who I wanted to be because that turned out to be not someone I can be. I don't know what to do.

You guys have seen my posts, I am now nothing more than a soulless monster.