> HOW do i walk into the office monday? HOW?!

> HELP!! i feel so open, raw, exposed! i'm scared...........

It is very surprising, but most people will not know what happened to you. They cannot read your mind -- they are too busy taking care of themselves. You can decide to only tell ones that you trust (if there are any). I know it sounds untrue, but it is likely that they are too busy with their own problems to notice yours. Which can be good or bad. It's good if you at least have someone to tell the truth to. Such as us. Or a T.