I am a professional in the mental health field and last year I was hospitalized for depression and suicidal thoughts. It was a very difficult time for me when I had to go back to work. However, I decided that I did not really care what others thought that depression is an illness like any other and that anyone who had been in the hospital for a medical condition would not feel the same. So I went back and actually it was not nearly as bad as I had anticipated. People were very supportive...the one's that knew...and the rest did not matter to me. I can certainly understand your feelings as I have been there myself. Just hang in there and do your best and that's all you can do.