hey guys today started out REALLY rough. i basically convinced myself that T had died. i still went to work but felt like CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanted to cry so bad. i kept trying to figure out how i could go home. i was gonna tell them i threw up in the bathroom and that i was sick. T texted me back and then i knew he was alive. i felt SO relieved. omg. its like thinking someone is dead for real, like for real gone forever. i feel grief and sadness and fear!!! i told T i had a vision last night that he died in a car wreck. T said i am not psychic and i dont control reality with my thoughts. then he put a sad face. i REALLY need help with that. its like this intense paranoia/ocd/strange thought problem. i asked T if he will help me let go of it and he said yes. it causes me so much pain. it happens every day to varying degrees and about practically anything. i am ready to get over this and stop it!!!

so anyway with all that said the rest of my day was ok. it was busier in the store so i was occupied.

i look back on this morning and feel like WTF???? why did i think T was dead? it started last night and i slept and it just continued this morning.

does anyone else think that the way they think can control universal reality?? any tips?? any suggestions? i really want to work on this and get rid of it!!!!