I feel your pain man. Do you think that it may be possible that you seek love from other males because you're afraid of women or you have issues trusting them due to some kind of abuse in your life by them or by simply not feeling loved by your mother?

My mother was an abusive narcissist and most of the other women in my life were abusive at one point to me as well so I tend to rely on most of my male friends for emotional support and love similar to the kind of love brothers show each other without having any sexual interest in them, yet having mostly sexual interests or the desire to be only casual friends with the females in my life because I find it difficult to open up to or trust women.

You're not alone and you're certainly not a freak. Welcome to PC BTW!