i don't do that. i find that i have a kind of wall up though and if there is any red flag at all, i find it hard to really let anyone in. i really only have family though, no friends and never been in a relationship, so i don't have many people in my everyday life.

i just know i have a difficult time with people on a deeper level because i either feel like i am too messed up or i fear them. i haven't been able to adequately gauge when a person is safe or not as most seem unsafe even just in an emotional way. there is always a part of me that wants to run and hide, so there isn't much testing of people with me.