Nothing wrong with researching this stuff. :P Nothing wrong with thinking it might be your diagnosis either. The idea of seeing a therapist may give you anxiety but honestly it may be good for you. Up to you though. A therapist is just a person paid to listen to you talk and to give you advice and help you figure things out. Of course, they're still a person - but the relationship is solely about you and everything you say is supposed to be confidential. Also you may find a therapist that's really nice and that you find you're able to open up to and that could help you. But you don't have to get help, you can stay the way you are if you're content with it.