So I've recently come off solian (dosage was 150mg and I came off it over a period of a week by slowly decreasing it and yes it was under my pdocs care)

when I got down to 50mg though I was very agitated and felt so anxious I could barely sit still. And then since I've been off it (a fortnight maybe?) I've just been feeling so much worse. Suicidal thoughts/ urges have been stronger, and so has all the self-harm stuff and I've slipped up and gone back to it

but yet when I was on the solian it did not impact me at all?? It didn't improve my mood, make me worse... just had no affect at all.

so is it possible I am still withdrawing from this med or should I go back on it? I don't see my pdoc for another week and a half and he usually doesn't return phone calls.

I really don't know what to do and I know you guys can't advise me as such but I just feel all alone and like I am going crazy. I am trying to not self-harm badly but things just keep getting worse and I dont know what to do.

anyone been on solian before or heard anything about it?

thanks for reading.