Dear T,

So after a 2 year gap here I am again...reaching out to you. I thought I could cope but I was wrong. I feel like a failure. I was amazed you agreed so readily to work with me because I know I'm not a model client and I must frustrate you a lot but thank you for doing that. I expected you to reject me like before but you said you were wrong to give me ultimatums. How do we restart after so long? I barely talk to you at the best of times! I'm glad we're not doing face to face therapy to start with. I know you wanted to but I really can't face you. Dropping payment off in fear of meeting you was hard enough. Was hoping the place would be closed. Hope you didn't see me. I have no idea how to talk to you but I hope I can.

Ps I really don't like your new office and I don't know why you thought telling me there was a coffee shop on the next floor would help. I'm not sure I could go there and talk to you...it doesn't seem as private and I'd feel exposed. Maybe email would be for the best now. Thanks again though