I am sorry that you are stuck in this cycle. My t recently told me I have an eating disorder. I dont pretend to understand this as these are not my issues. I get kind of weird about the calories when i think about them, but basically i dont eat all day, so that i can binge all night. Just kind of keep things even. It seems it is one of my alters that is doing all the night time eating.

Anyway, my sister had an eating disorder. Id like to tell you her story if you would like to hear it. It may help if you are open to it. She died Jan 2014. I would hate for you to make the same mistakes she made. If you would like to know more, you can send me a private message.