If you make a mistake fuzzy paws, it isn't a mistake and you deserve to punish yourself. You deserve to carry the big stick the childhood abusers hit you with for so many years, yes you buried the stick under a beautiful tree. But the stick is always there to beat you up with

I took one Effexor today And I'm completely utterly freaked out.

I don't believe that meds is a viable solution for me. Please be kind