I understand how this feels. Sometimes it feels like no one else really is there, no one is playing on your team or understands how you feel or what you're trying to say. It isn't easy to let your emotions and true identity show, as not everyone is accepting and not everyone is in a state of mind to where they are able to wrap their mind around someone who isn't alike to them, which is understandable but still extremely difficult when you're wanting to feel comforted and not misunderstood and I understand that concept completely, in fact I struggle with feeling like so more often than not. I'm not sure if my words are coming out the way I'm intending them to be but you're not alone and there might be a deeper reason to why you feel alone that I can't give my two cents on.