What do you do when you realize you are stuck in a place, pattern and lifestyle that isnt working?

Usual pattern... I was broken and destroyed and I let someone save me then got stuck in the broken place because it was easier than moving on.

I have been somebodys pet, child or project my whole life.

But the longer I wait, the harder leaving will be...

But I have a house full of crap, no money, a cat, no idea where I would go or what I would do. I havent legally worked in over 6 years. I have no references. I dont trust myself with getting most forms of help, given this pattern...

I dont know where to go or what to do but waiting for something to change is not going to work, it will only get harder.

With a year clean, can I go to a second stage addictions program? Dunno, but that might help. I cant keep saying that I cant stay here and doing nothing about it... but scary.