Very good luck is coming my way!

- My highschool allowed me to finish my English course that I abandoned for not having enough time. I can keep going from where I left off! =D I'm working full time now until September but I'm still considered to be a student as of today.

- My psychologist said that I'm the best he's ever seen symptomatically. I didn't tell him about delusions or paranoia because it wasn't needed. I have good enough insight even though my injection is due on Tuesday.

- Thanks to my mom for not giving up and fighting for me like she always does. So now I have coverage for the injection until disability which I thought would never happen. Unfortunately, the Abilify injection and Concerta aren't covered so my psychiatrist is going to make them through law or something because I definitely qualify. I trust my mom as she went to law school for 4 years.

- Disability will be soon and not 10-14 months thanks to my psychiatrist and psychologist. My mom has to fill out a form of 47 pages about me in order to become a trustee and control my income if I am not able to make proper decisions from delusions and disorganized thinking etc. I'll be giving some money to her if my dad doesn't pay child support.

- It's amazing that at my job yesterday where my mom and the staff in the office spent like all day to get coverage for Concerta because My mom is the boss so they were able to do it. I'm so thankful.

One day I will be content. No one can stop me. Content is when I can chill and appreciate life, things around me.. Reality.

I have more to write but I don't feel motivated at the moment.

*Drinks coffee*..

I'm mostly optimistic always because if I'm not, I fall down. Hard. If I feel depression, I quickly distract myself because I have a fixed delusion that I'll never get depression ever again unless I give up where the suicidal thoughts linger. It gets better every time. No suicidal ideation just be careful of what chemicals you use and pay attention to the state you're in.

I really need to get my * together. But it's hard. Exciting though to live life. Experience and memories.. And now I'm down.. Forgot already. Yes, I'm a bit delusional, have an ego that people like to break when having high self esteem out of content. Content will come in a while I'm sure of or I go down a dark road.

I'll write more later.

- Tweaky